🌿New Album: Relationscapes (A research–creation inquiry into trauma, healing, and relation)
What is Relationscapes?
Relationscapes is an album for survivors of coercive control and family violence.
Relationscapes is an album for survivors, educators, and anyone seeking to understand the relational aftermath of coercive control and family violence.
Over the past year, I’ve been working on a creative–research inquiry exploring trauma, gender-based violence, and the long, complex process of coming home to oneself after experiences of control or harm.
The result is Relationscapes — a 16-track concept album (plus three bonus tracks) tracing the emotional and relational journey of leaving, grieving, and learning to live again. Each song maps a different moment in that journey — from love-bombing and disorientation to courage, grief, and reconnection with the living world.
This work is both academic and deeply personal: a fusion of feminist inquiry, autoethnography, and sonic storytelling. It draws inspiration from my doctoral research on trauma and relational education, while remaining an independent, non-commercial creative project. It’s my offering to anyone who has ever tried to rebuild a life after harm — especially mothers and those navigating recovery from coercive control.
The Journey in Song
The album unfolds like a cycle of transformation:
Intro (Dedication) – A prayer for all who left and survived. SEE HERE
Spellbound – The shimmer and seduction of love-bombing. SEE HERE
Mask Falling – When illusion cracks and truth breaks through. SEE HERE
Leaving (Run) – The dangerous, necessary act of leaving. SEE HERE
Mama’s Lullaby – A gentle song for sleepless nights. SEE HERE
Wounded Warrior – The exhaustion and quiet strength of surviving. SEE HERE
Returning to Myself – Choosing peace over chaos. SEE HERE
Yellow Rock Anthem – Setting boundaries with grace and humour. SEE HERE
Paper Battlefields – Surviving the court system’s double-bind. SEE HERE
Mother Tree – Finding belonging in the living world. SEE HERE
Needle in a Haystack – Re-imagining love and trust. SEE HERE
Altar Ego – Reclaiming joy, pleasure, and play (our inner child coming alive again) SEE HERE
Relationscapes – The closing hymn: we rise together. SEE HERE
🎶 Bonus Tracks:
Needle in a Haystack (Country Version) SEE HERE
Returning to Myself (Indie Version) SEE HERE
Spellbound (Witchy Version) SEE HERE
Why I Made This
In studying trauma and recovery, I realized that academic writing often struggles to hold what survivors actually live. There are things that can’t be said in prose — but they can be sung.
Relationscapes became a relational experiment: a way to listen differently, to translate research into rhythm, and to make knowledge feel again. It’s a love letter to survivors and practitioners alike — a map of what it means to rebuild, and a reminder that healing is not about returning to what was, but about creating new relations of safety, belonging, and awe.
Throughout the album, one refrain keeps returning:
You are seen. You are heard. You are not alone.
Listen To the Album in Full
🎧 Stream for free:
YouTube Video Playlist (with lyrics)
Read the Lyrics
📖 Download all lyrics in a handy PDF → CLICK HERE
Research Inquiry Methods - On Ethics and AI
All songs and lyrics were written and composed by me, drawing on lived experience and ongoing feminist research. AI tools were used only for production assistance — not for lyric generation (only minor grammatical edits).
This is a non-commercial, educational project exploring the ethics of AI-assisted music as a form of social research and creative inquiry. I stand with artists who call for transparency and fair practice in AI art. Relationscapes is an experiment in how technology can serve healing and collective storytelling, rather than exploitation.
